Saturday, December 17, 2005
Warning: its a long post.. i think it better for me to put this at the top. for those who are not interested in long ranting that i came up with... u can just ignore this post... Dun complain that i waste your time..
For the others if u want to carry on reading.. dun say i din warn u.... ]
maybe the long post is to make up for the lack of entries during this period of time..
Sometimes it seems too early to rejoice for a flexible working hours schedule where u only turn up for work for only 2-3 days a week.... Now that i realised that this kind of flexible hours would be invading on ur weekends...
I used to look forward to weekends when i worked as a temp cos i know that i could relax and shop and have fun over it... but now i think i dread weekends cos it only means that i have reports to submit on monday and i have to prepare for it...
Here i am typing on my blog as i reviewed what i have wriiten in my report to be submitted for monday.. then i have another one for tuesday and another one on wednesday.. It is not as difficult as doing an essay yet the research part is something i hated. cos i have to go through tons of information before i would proceed to select the useful ones which i can use. Then i have to make sure that the one report i submitted is concise and at the same time would not let ppl feel that i am eating snake and not doing work..
Its difficult lei....but then i am really pleased with myself that i could churn up tons of words within a short period of time.. yet i do not wish to shortchange myself this time for the assignments that i am supposed to do.. It is a chance for me to learn to experience.....
And today on a sunday... yah.... here... i am doing report and researching on materials... I am too tired to go out with my family..... i have been going out everyday for the week including saturdays and only returning home past 9 or 10... I need a rest..
I am sick of doing surveys and asking ppl to do surveys for me... I can take the rejection but its just that i dun like to stand there and do my work when on weekend before christmas i am supposed to be shopping away and looking out for sales.. With people swarming around me and shopping.. all of a sudden i really hated my work....
therefore as u can see.. i become emotionally unstable.. I looked through my entries and felt that they are mainly ranting on my part...... This is not suppose the way the life is going to be.. I began to wonder what will happen if i would start work next year.....
To a certain extend i like the income that work brought with it.. but then sometimes i would feel lonely when i work.. its the feeling of vacuum... and its kind of weird.. I dun feel it when i am schooling.... but then the vacuum would only occur once in a while cos i am always loaded with things to do.. it disappeared as fast as the rate it appears.....
Therefore to relax myself.. i start to read some chinese love story novel.. actually it sparks off with my sis who borrowed a few from the library.... and being the usual me . always do inappropriate things at the wrong time.... i began to pick up one book and start reading...
For your information, i am that kind of person who will refuse to take on any new task before i finished reading my book.. i would read it till the end even it is to the extent of starting to write my report late at night and end even later..
I dun like the stories that i read.... cos most of the time i dun really understand wad the author is trying to say behind the story... to me its just another silly love story and nothing else.. cos i dun want to do my report therefore i read it.. its just an alternative to substantiate my inability to complete the report on time.. and it is a good one.. cos i am reading.... at least i din waste my time zuo boing.. i am reading chinese books which i haven touched for ages and i miss reading chinese characters..
I think this post is way too long.. shall end here... back to report......
Life goes on...
unlocked @ Saturday, December 17, 2005
