Sunday, October 30, 2005
Now comes the seasons of examination.....
In another two weeks time, i be having my final exam....
But then i think its quite contradictory, whenever my exams are coming
i feel the urge to blog and write more....
However, i really do wonder y does it happen only when exams are coming....
Is it because of the exam that i am more stress and are more likely to vent out my stress here through some writings?
or iS it because that during exam period, i am more likely to think about things that are happening...
cos in this time of the year, i believe the brain activity going through my brain would be the most active..
For the rest of the time, i can just forget about it... i am living in absolute blurness.... I have friends to remind me to hand in assignments and then i will rush them out at the last min.... I have friends to remind me of my midterm.. so that i can remember to study at least a bit for it.... Hmm... if u are thinking of how did i survive, i think and hope taht i have done it pretty well for this sem.. and the previous ones... hahaa....
But then sometimes, i can somehow figure that i need to hand in assignments... The thing is i hate to check the ivle... haha... blame it on pure laziness or the refusal to bring myself to the reality... hee hee.. when the lecturer just reminded us verbally... i am more likely to forget her instructions than she post it online.. even if she post the reminder online, given the frequency that i checked the ivle, by the time i knew it, its always too late..
The reason that i been living this way is that i just want to get my cert and puff..... out of the education system...
But right now amidst this exam.. i start to confront myself with issues like do i want to go ahead to do my honours?
First the results must be good enough and worthwhile to do so...
I realise that i can do honours after all but then its a matter of choice of whether i shall do it or not....
At this time, i can t really weigh the pros and cons of doing or not doing honours....
Doing honours for the sake of doing it? but then wads the purpose?
Maybe i have asked a lot of ppl for their views.... maybe i have been going through this questions many times....
But certainly i do not have an answer right now.....
Sometimes i really hoped that i have someone to decide my life for me.. and tell me to do this and that.... So that i do not have to think so much for myself.....
So should i do it or not..
Maybe this is not the right time to think about the issue.. cos my exams are around the corner....
Thats y there is such a contradiction in me.... i think about things at times i should not do so....
Right now i just rest my case.... i think i will worry about it after the exams.....
The next term is the last chance for me to do it... after that, there will be no turning back......
unlocked @ Sunday, October 30, 2005
