Tuesday, January 04, 2005
A tribute
Life is really so unpredictable and things changes so fast..
I think i will nv forget this day of my life....
Have so many first time today.......
Realise that wad makes a family is not only being related by blood...
Wad determines a family, having the same looks? related by blood? or living in the same place?
All that does not matter.... its the feeling that counts...
Nv realise that i could cry until like that... its the first time....
The instant he is mentioned... tears would swell up, flooding my eyes blurring my vision.
The tears just came naturally, i have no control over it....
Nv knew that i could cry like this....
How am i feeling? I do not know... I just cant bear to c him leave.... perhaps?
Wads worse is that i realised that i do not know his name, i cried over someone whom i meet only once a year..
He is my Nai gong gong....
It does not matter how many times i see him per year, its the feeling i have, the warmth of having an elderly grandfather figure who care for u....
He is gone! Never ever will he be back..
I knew it, i also know that life have to go on... But i will miss him..
As i received the phonecall from my mum saying that he is gone, my mind blanked.
In another instant tears flowed down before i even noe.
Fancy crying like that in the public while i was crossing the road..
Nv knew i could do this..
Nv knew that life can be so vulnerable and weak... human being too...
I think it is the first time i could feel my heart wrenching.
It is painful.
Really painful.
unlocked @ Tuesday, January 04, 2005
